Since the last post, everything is okay..and we are back together again..We have went to eat Fish and Co. happily, ding dai fung happily..and even celebrated our 7th month anniversary..But what do I or rather is WE get in the end.. Just last saturday..We can say that we end our 7th month relationship over at Ang Mo Kio...But dunno whether is there any chance of us patching back..

To: Esther Chan
Now is my turn and my part to say of my story...

I know sometimes my temper is not good..But I still can withstand 3 times of ur nonsense...Which I know sometimes even 3 times is not enough for U.. Assume and Assume..I sometimes really dunno why all the girl like to assume..Assume that I go out with another girl, when I am working so hard and dun even have times for my frined..Assume this and that when i am really tired after working night shift is one of the worst feeling that I need to take from u..But after all the explaination to U and the words i say to please u, all this I still can forget...

Just last saturday at Vivo..I have read ur blog..Yup..I agreed that I am overboard..But what really make me so angry and to say all the sacarstic remarks and all the action is because of what u did..I only can say that u only say ur side of story..Now this is my side of story..

During our shopping trip at Vivo City, all seems to go well until when we step into Zara..Firstly, I wanna hold ur hand..But u refuse..DO u think what ur action and wad u say is really overboard...But for this I can take it... Secondly, when we continue to shop in zara, and I only jokingly mentioned about something that the staff need to do to clear the mess in the shop, den, u asked me to stop saying all the fei hua can a not...It is just like a slap from u in my mouth, when I am finding ways to please u and joke about...For this I still can stand abit..Even though by den I already feel like shooting my mouth out... Thirdly, Wth..!! Is about what U say about me not giving u any comment when u does ur shopping...This totally make me burst my temper...Not giving u any comment..ARE U REALLY SURE!! I will always give u comment, saying which shirt suit u, but what will u reply me..U will say that all my taste is not nice..That's mean all ur taste is the best..den wth must I give u comment.... This time round, I admitted that I shoot my mouth out saying all the angry things and displeasure things.. I den walk off to Esprit shop...U follow suit..So ..When I walk into the shop, u just came and told me that u dun want to shop at this shop, and wanna to go off liao..This further burst my temper...

Just come to think, all u done is it really too overboard or is it for ur case u will think that it is all the normal things that u have done.. I say all those things and u did mention sorry to me..But will dat please me...Ok..I did see that u cried so much, and that's means that u know dat u are wrong..But what is wrong of me that I say that I wan to go home.. I wan to go home is not becos I wanna be the MUMMYBOY that u say me..I wan to cool myself down so that I can think logically..But U say that by going home, means I am a MUMMYBOY... This further angered me.. Just imagined when I am already so so angry, yet by saying me is a MUMMYBOY, will it help..?? NO..not a single bit at all... I drove all the way from Vivo to Ang Mo Kio and not to ur home is already good..As u mention to me that u does not want to go home..But what u do...Slamming my car door so hard, when I already warn u not to..Just like the last quarrel..U too slam my car door so hard at ur house...Do u think that this will further cool down things..NO..

All this one is not added to the things that U always assume..Assume that I go out with other girl when I am working so hard day and night during my shift..Assume that I am with other girl when I am fetching my colleague home...Assume that I will sms other girl when I did not..Where are all the trust that a gf must give a bf..I feel not at all.. Plus when the day that we meet is just only after my night shift, it make me feel more worst as I will tend to feel tired easily..But wat will u say, U will say that I with my friend I wun feel tired, with u I will feel tired.. But am I correct to say that, most of the off days, I am accompany u..and I have hardly times with my friend..That is true...U can ask all my friend that ask me to go out..I will say I am not free..

Just to say that when U are angry, u also say things insensibly just like I do....U will say that we are not fit to be together at all..and U will say that I am only just a small fry in the police force..So.. I am not "PEI" to be with u..den all the 7 months, u think I dun love u is it... So when we are in a lovely mode, all the not nice things from u will became nice..It is real obvious...Ya ..I admit I am Da Nan Ren..That's mean U are also Da Niu Ren ma...

Just lastly to say..when U say all those angry things that make me angry..Can I be angry to say all those things to throw back at U..I know for ur thinking u will say that all guy have to take what all gals throw at them..But really sorry, I am not that type..

Just the matter about petrol...Do u know how much we have travelled together in my vehicle..If u dun wan to pay, did I ever force u to pay..Not all all..Now, U are complaining and complaining...will this help...I dunno the roadway, and get lost when I am driving, u will say me stupid..Is it the way a gf will treat a bf..

Another things is that u should know by now after 7 months, I hate girl who scold vulgarity, when I dun scold one single vulgarity at all if no one provoke me..But for u, when U are angry..U will say "fuck u", "u this fucker", "u this bastard", this is not all i wan to hear.. U say that I love my ex more den I love u...I should say is totally wrong to assume and think this way..Everyone learn and grow mature in every single way...I can say that I learn alot from my previous r/ship, and I will not end up like the last one..

Lastly, I can say that even if we end in a sour note, what to do..Is not that I choose it..I know what I wan..And I know I still love u..But wad to do..Is all ur choices now..u dun expect me to give in further anymore...Really..I do really love U..but just like I say..Everyone have their own choices..U choose the way and not the way chooses u...That's all for now..








I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.