Tuesday, January 30, 2007 | 8:22 PM
Recently have been reading news of Xu wei Lun at school.. Has been Following the news since yesterday...I was truelly shock by the news..Although i am not totally her fans, but my back of mind keep seeing images of her smile on Tv, her "si zhi lu kou"with jacky wu etc.....After reading so many of her news, it is sad that her life just end like this and she leave alot of memories to her fans and also alot of sadness that is indescrible to her fans and her family. I will pay my tribute to Xu wei lun, a great actress who is a really hardworking person throughout her whole life to gain the popularity. Till now after seeing news that say that her schdule was so pack on the day of her accident that she needs to keep rushing places to places, i feel sad like most of her fans.. A truelly truth Actress has gone to another world.. I salute U "Xu Wei Lun"...Hope u will be the guardian angel of all ur fans and deep in all of our hearts, ur smile will always be remembered..
After the news of Xu wei Lun, i somehow feel life is so short..Once u are here and in a blink u are not...This make me wanted to be more happy everyday as to live life to the fullest, dun leave any regret when u leave this world...I really want to be happy and i know i can do it..
This news really affect my mood which have not been in good mood..School has been the same old life as usual...I really hope for a accompany before i leave school..Seeing "her" so fast find her happiness somehow make me happy and sad..In a confusing manner...
I shall end here..Quite tired and confusing....a phrase for all friends reading .."do things that will make u saistifeld, dun regret it after it has happen" ..In short .."Cherish all yr friends , family ard"...."Just do whatever your heart told u to do , dun regret"...Take care to all reading...
R.I.P xu wei lun..=(
I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007 | 11:31 PM
Life has been the same..Today i somehow feel quite heart "men" ..I myself also does not know why... I keep always telling myself "siao yi siao mei she meh si shi guo bu le de"....But i somehow feel quite moody today maybe reading some of the past things that make me think quite alot...After reading "her" blog, i somehow remeber the past..Maybe is the "she bu de" feels that make me feel moody ba..But i will "siao yi siao" jiu hao le...
I just browse through some pics taken and suddenly have the feel of blogging..Maybe is it becos i cannot find anyone to tell my heart "feel" to therefore i need to vent it on the blog...I know i dun normally contain my feeling for relationship well, that's why maybe i will need more time to forget...How i wish time will fasten in my brain so that i will forget everything..Treat it as a dream..a Nice Dream...I wonder fate do change quite fast...It is exactly a month since the problem started...A month ago we will happliy chatting in MOS burger..I was also thinking of so many things we have say and so many problem we have face..But....How things change so fast..I have back to my old life of my oldself..But i somehow feel a feeling of emptiness..It is indescribable..Maybe as i began to be busy with my work and busy with my life i will start forgetting the emptiness feel..
Is week 9 now..Another 18 more days (excluding saturday and sunday) and i will be leaving NYP ...Somehow i feel sad leaving school..Maybe becos i will miss school life..Or i will be going to NS soon..Is just somehow a suddenly urge of sadness that raise through my heart...I need to cherish every mins of my school life as possible..Maybe this 18 days will be the last time i step into school life..How i hope i will have a companion by myside so that i will really forget the whole dream quickly...I can see "u" have already go on with ur life and i also wanna go on with my life...I wish..I wish...I wish..Hope all my wish can come true..And finally hope "u" have found ur happiness and ur only one...
I am feeling tired...I got to jia you.."Thomas".."siao yi siao mei she meh si shi guo bu le de"...
I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.
Saturday, January 13, 2007 | 3:38 PM
It has been quite a while since i have since touch my blog..9 days to be exactly...Actually i have been going back to my old life routine of waking up..Going to school..back from school..face computer at homes for hours..and sleep...this have been my routine for the past few weeks...
Have not been really happy this few weeks..It seem that something is still bothering me in my heart..I will sometimes keep thinking of the past..Even though the past is already the past, there are still many wonderful memory stored..So when ever i read my past post, i will somehow feel more "men" in my heart...But i just need to cope the adjustment of life without a companion and i will be fine...I will just get to face the computer more..Stay at Home alone more often..Watch Tv more often..And i will be getting use of it as times goes by...
Recently school FYPJ has been quite stress for me...The 2nd presentation have pass, and we took abt 2 hrs to finish our presentation...There are a few points we need to done its coding..but does not really know how to implemented it..Lucky My partner is kind of smart in programming..She knew how to find the coding and place it correctly too..
Yesterday went out to chill with Jia fa and Henry..Went to Vivo City for a walk about, after we have settle our meal, we went to Clarke Quay for a drink..Went to a Pub call "Highlander"..The place there was kind of so High Class...There are many "ang mo" over there...we have a drink over there and we chit chat for quite a while...after we finish our drinks, we went walking ard at clarke Quay until we reliased the time is already 1am...So we went walking to "Lao Pa Sat" as we have felt Hungry...Had our supper there..Before we walk all the way from "Lao Pa sat" to Cinelesure..The feeling of walking down the breezy road with amost no one ard the streets is quite cool..I can put off all my unhappiness and my heart sudden feel no more "men" feeling anymore...we walk to city hall before we land our self in bugis , partlly becos we does not really know how to walk to cinelesure....we took a big route before we land our self at PS mac for a quick Break...As the weather is drizzling, we stop for a rest, before proceeding to Cinelesure...
Reach there, brought movie ticket of "Kung fu MaJong 3" This show is quite average...But overall not that bad, apart from the short is kind of short...THe movie end ard 5.35am...And we proceed to the MRT station to take the First train home....
Although it is kind of tiring..But i enjoy it..As it help me forget alots of things that have happen..and those really unhappy things i can put it aside..I Just wanna move on with my Brand New Life..I knew that "U" have already move on with urs..and look happy with ur other companion....and How i hope i can move on with mines too...and to find a companion to accompany me...Emm..I does not know whaT I am blogging..haha..ok..i shall end my post here...
I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.
Thursday, January 04, 2007 | 10:32 PM
It's all over..I need to get back to my normal life...Back to the Old me..=) ... I will stay strong and continue with my new life..Starting of 2007...Brand new year..Brand New Life...Continue to strive for the life i always want...Hope for 2007..
1) Stay Healthy and lively
2) Finished my studies and Graduate from NYP
3) Find a Gf to accompany me for life if possible
4) Stay Happy
5) Keep working to save up
6)Safe NS journey
7) Family stay bond and Happy
8) World Peace
This are my Hope and wishes for the Year 2007..
How i wish i can be to my ownnself as quick as possible...Forget about the unhappiness..Think of the happiness...I just somehow cannot clear my heart obstacle..=(
I dun think i going to write anymore..Starting to feel moodyless when ever i blog..Take care to all dude reading..Stay Happy..I will..=)
I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 | 3:28 PM
Is the first post i have made in 2007..Everyone seems to be happy because it is a new Year and a new beginning for everyone..But for me, i somehow have tone of feel to say..yet i just cannot find a place to throw all my unhappiness at...I think this is the only place where i can throw all my feeling at..
I have just end my 8th month relationship...Quarrels and Quarrels..Throwing my tantrums...Making each of us reaching our limits and could not move futhurer on...I was just sad that we have to end this way..I was with my friends when u msg me saying.."i have tot about it..i think we can be frens.." I drop tears..As i could not control my feelings..How i wish u could say .."dear..can we give each other one more chances.." I will make sure that if we give each other one more chance, we will sttrive for better"....This is what i always hope for...But all i get is this..I just need to brood over it for a while and i will be ok..I admit that i throw my tanturm too easily..But somethings that i cannot tolerate i will just react angrily..If there is any wrong..i apologize for it..But anyway all is gone...
All i can do is to keep all this 8 months as a beautiful memories of my whole life..
"thanks for being there for me laughing and crying with each other..
thanks for all the times u were there for me..thanks for the accompany for 8 whole months.."
I am willing to accept ur decision as both of us have reach our limit..I will always be ur best friends..And i will hope for ur future happiness...As our "gou gou shou gai ying zhang" promise has not always be a fairy tales ending..I will wish for ur happiness and ur safety in my heart..
I do love u..even now..But all cannot be correct..I failed..as u have ask me this "Will u still love me in the morning"..."Yes..I always do"....While i am typing this post out..My tears flow....Our story end...8 months of happiness and sadness..watching u take part in dance competiton..accompany me to watch soccer..Done thousands of things together...Watching ur dance practices..Waiting for me to off work...gone to relatives house.....shopping ard with each others...all will be kept in my beneth memory..."I love U dearly"...
Story ended...19 April 2006 ~ 30 December 2006....
I will always love you eventhough it's not easy to love you;
because I will always do.
